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What is one of the greatest gifts of all? Self-Discovery and discovering you and your partner have a lot more in common than you originally thought.


When you begin to realize that your partner gives you unconditional love and acceptance it makes a HUGE difference. Previous relationships, marriages, etc. have dictated a certain role – beating us down into submission – losing our voice to say “I AM LION HEAR ME ROAR!” We created coping mechanisms and ways to suppress our true inner self. But, if you listen to the things your partner says, you just might hear the kitten giving subtle “mews.”


For me, from the very beginning, I knew I was adopted. People would ask me if I knew how special I was because I was “chosen.” I’d give them a crooked smile, run off with my blond hair bouncing behind me, yelling “Catch Me If You Can.” I was such a free-spirit, a dreamer, a silly-heart. Fireflies intrigued me, and cat tails were magic wands to worlds of great imagination. Green slimy frogs, fuzzy caterpillars and grass snakes made me giggle. Fields of honey wheat were just mystical mazes of tomfoolery. At that time, nothing seemed beyond my reach.


When I learned to write my letters it became an art. Instead of mastering the concept, it became a process of drawing them, like Picasso painted his masterpieces. I had no fear, I was curious as all get out and made no qualms about investigating, even if it meant taking something apart and putting it back together again – or not, lol.


The love of laughing and loving my friends was enchanting. I was such a tomboy, I hated wearing dresses. Most of my friends were boys, but at that time no one cared, we were just kids – it also made for some serious rough and tumble, down and dirty, knee deep in mud kind of escapades. There was never any reason for concern and it was rarely, if ever a question – it was always FULL STEAM AHEAD… Yes, we got in TROUBLE a LOT, but back then, WE ROARED through it!

kids in mud

Today, some of us are blessed, as God has given us the ability to hear those soft mews, to understand them and ignite an epiphany that for once in your adult life, you have found someone who you are FREE to ROAR with!


So when asked “Can Kristen come out and play?” that blond haired, free-spirit, silly-hearted little girl will not only bust open the screen door and take off running – she will yell “TAG YOUR IT”



About Hiding2014-2016

2016 Life is what it is and you just have to get through it. 2014 I started blogging just a short time ago, it actually feels good. I've made some new friends and soliciting feedback from others who have experienced similar life events helps me to not feel so alone. So we all have bumps in the road, we make poor decisions - we are only human. It is these life experiences who make us who we are today. There is no need to have regret, just move forward. Ok, easier said than done, because as you read my profile, sometimes I take a step forward and then two steps back.

Posted on July 29, 2014, in My Life Over 40 and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. Love this. Beautifully written


  2. I love this……….
    It gives me hope that somewhere the independent free me is still in there somewhere.


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